PASTOR'S PEN: It's who I am


This was an article Katie Carmichael wrote and sent to me. She is from Evart, from our church, and also lived in Traverse City. She is currently a sophomore at Cedarville University. I just thought it was a good article and could be helpful for those going through the same thing. 

After how many times I have had to introduce myself in the past week or so, one would think I would be an expert by now, yet here I am struggling to find the words to describe who I am.

Who am I? In all honesty, I absolutely hate that question. And if I am not mistaken, many others would agree with me. It’s just a hard question to answer. I could share a little bit about what I enjoy — for instance, I love to play sports, travel, and sing — but even then, it’s hard to grasp the entirety of someone with a few generalized likes or dislikes. I could share a little bit about my appearance — for instance, I am 5;8", blonde-ish, and klutzy — but once again, that is only the physical appearance. I could try to explain my personality — for instance, I have an obsession for corny humor, especially puns, and I am typically one of the biggest goofballs you’ll ever meet — but even then, I have come to find that at the root of who I am, this only scratches the surface.

In all reality, I could go on and on and on and talk about my major, my family, my hobbies, my plans for life, my extracurricular activities or basically anything else I can think of, but without truly knowing me, these are still not getting at who I truly am. And to be even more honest, I would agree that I am not even sure of who I truly am.

Think about that for a moment as I pause to share the lyrics of a song I heard on the radio: “Good Good Father” by Housefires.

The chorus is:

"You're a good, good Father

It's who You are, It's who You are, It's who You are and I'm loved by You.

It's who I am, It's who I am, It's who I am"

I absolutely love this song, but the more I listened to it, it really captivated me. "I’m loved by you. It’s who I am."

You can probably see what I am getting at. How often do we describe who we are by who we are loved by — and in this case — the Creator of the universe? It really is quite the bold statement. As I tried to write this post and describe who I am as well as describe my intentions for this next year, I was humbled by that line.

"I’m loved by you. It’s who I am."

My relationship with God: His love, His mercy and His grace are definitely the basis for who I am — for who I truly am. I think I can get too focused on myself that I never stop to think about the most important part of myself: God’s love. It is because of God’s love that I am able to wake up each morning and do the things that I love — the things that I have come to identify myself with. It is because of God’s love that I am created the way that I am. It is because of God’s love that I am able to be unique, to thrive, to smile and to be loved.

Isn’t that just so humbling? Now I want to go back to that question of "Who am I?" but this time, I don’t want to focus on me. Today, I answer this question with the utmost confidence: I am who I am because I am fiercely loved by a King — and so are you.